I'm following the leader ...
Letting go and following the most influential teacher in my life
Since birth I have tried to listen to my inner mumma bear, my gut. As they said its not just a baby that's born, but a mother too. And I haven't been one of those before!
So the best I could do was listen to my gut and go from there, despite questioning my abilities multiple times!
When she was a baby my daughter would show me through non verbal communication what she wanted (or didn't want) all I had to do was to listen, watch, and be present. I didn't use many contraptions to aid her ability I just let her explore; on an open mat on the floor so she could learn to wriggle, roll and move.
When she started to stand up I would give her space and toys to explore, time to find her balance and confidence to move when she wanted to. Then there was no stopping her!
In between all this her voice was coming, with the use of sign language (Ettie Betty Baby Signs) we have been able to stumble through, as though she's giving us a secret code we need to understand - and most of the time do! I love her little language now, the words shes picked up on and the way she excitedly dances with her 'happy feet' when we finally understand what shes been asking us!
We co-sleep and breastfeed because shes shown me shes not ready to leave that season of our life just yet (and neither am I) I imagine she will be there before I am! but I will follow her lead. I'm the adult in this relationship so I will pick up the pieces once she starts to move on.
Now shes nearly 2. I'm not worried about the so called 'terrible twos' I'm confident in letting my daughter lead the way, I'm able to observe her play and give her the space and resources she needs. The more I sit back and let her guide me the better our relationship. She is independent, cheerful and full of character. I believe letting go and being present in her life is going to guide us both through this crazy ride called life.